brodymoore

i had a friend once who took some acid, now he thinks he's a fire engine...its kinda cool until he pisses on your lighter. smells kinda funny, kinda cool...

i had a friend once who took some ecstasy...then tried to marry me and everyone in the room... he was sorta loving, kinda caring...kinda tried to fuck my laz-E boi... it got a bit messy all over the curtains, armchair, throw pillows and carpeting...

i hope May 2nd gets here soon...TOOL is one of the greatest bands ever and i want to hear their new stuff already...knowing marla she's probably heard a few new songs...lucky!

hello evryone... i don't know what to do anymore... i'm like stuck in a rut in my life and i can't seem to get out. i'm like bored with everything and everyone. i want an escape from this place and its horrible people! don't get me wrong i love my friends and most of my family but fuck!! i'm tired...

 why is it the one thing worth living for, worth fighting for, worth DYING for...is the one thing i can't seem to get right?   i'm tired of being a screw up and all the things that come with the territory... i know i should be happy and grateful for all the wonderful things i have and that other kids have it way worse than i do but i can't! even my mom's miserable here. she wants to move away and go to some far off land and start over and to get away from all the mooching relatives... i kinda wanna go to LA or something... but i don't think i could leave Marla and Jackie. they mean too much and i like it how they smile and laugh with me instead of AT me... egh...i'm gonna go puke. i feel sick...

-jackie

whoa..it really has been awhile since i updated and watnot..

so, i'm all sad and whatnot cuz i'm in love with this really great guy named Jesse. i have never met such a kick ass person! i honestly wish that he would be a girl sometimes so i can have him all to myself at school... but he's not. and he's with his ex-ex girlfriend... i don't know how many times she's cheated on him but like a moron, he keeps going back to her and taking her back... its retarded cuz you'd think by the second time that that has happened he would realize that she's untrustworthy, but i guess there'll always be emotional attachment to your first. (*.*) i want him to be happy, and i know i should be happy that he's happy...i just wish i could be the one to make him happy, ya know?

and he had like a "show" a couple weeks ago. i had to stay the night at his house (i know, right?) but we didn't do anything...to my disappointment. all we did was hug and hold each other at night and it made me feel better about myself...now imagine how i felt when he took her back the following week...

today, he's having another party to showcase his band off to the actual public and some of his more distant friends... and complete strangers...like j0e! hopefully... i hope i don't make myself look like a moron today. i know that its inevitable and somehow it'll happen...i just hope it doesn't.

k, until next time.

HAPPY NEW YEARS, my little boner biters!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRODY DALLE!!!   i dont have much to say except that i saw Fight Club for the first time last night! IT WAS AWESOME!!

k, i dont have much to say as Holly straightens my hair....

toodles boppers!

--bite me--

k, i went to see my counselor today and got a refill on my lithium and welbutrin. but other than that today's been fairly uneventful... oh, just so you know, I'M BIPOLAR!

it's my sister's birthday and i made her pancakes for breakfast... shes 17 now so one more year and her ass is out and i get her room!! JOY! lol thats mean, i actually don't want her to leave because then i'd get lonely and she's the only one of the  few family members that i get along with...

stupid Zack keeps asking for sex, i wonder if he'd still bug me if i told him i had ghonnerea, which i dont i just want him to leave me alone....i like being nice to him though cause he has these moments where he's really deep and he can be such a sweet heart. i wish he would be like that all the time...

i am gonna go now cause i have 2 eat and feed my doggy.

laterz and to all the beautiful people that added me as a friend... THANX, u made me happy in my pants. lol

k, bye

--bite me--

and thats the little boner biter that won't stop changing....

yay, i can update

i got a comp so all the little ppl that added me  as a friend i thank you and i'll add you as soon as i can cuz ya'll have kool pros

yeah, so i'm really incredibly happy cuz i got Kid's #!!! (i know, right?) anyways... he's SOOO FUCKIN HOTT!!!! my friend Natty thinx he may want more than sex which of course, so do i. he's smart and he makes me laugh with the crude humor... hehe. so i think we may be going to the movie's Friday to go watch Saw 2. (i already know who the bad guy is but i dont know how everything goes down and thats the fun part) yeah, so he was all "i wanna frikin kiss you" i was all 'go for it... when you see me at school, pleasantly surprise me and just kiss me!!!'  i wish that did happen. today!! 

yay!!! i'm going to the movies with my babeh Holly!!! she's so cute and i lub my babe.

yeah... i really wish that Jackie would hurry up and get a buzznet. these are better than xangas. but o well.

yeah, so i'm sittin in latin playin on the comps in ms. smith's room. k, the guy i'm crushing on... lets call him kid... is really really cute. i saw him smile for the first time today and i was all like WHOA. lol. yeah the things i like in a guy is the smile, the voice, the humor, and the sweetness. i've only witnessed two of these qualities in Kid, but he already has me wrapped around his twisted little finger!!!!  it's gay.

i hate being too young... only 3 more years and i'm 18.

BERT!!!!!! Hi babe, how've you been? yeah, you don't have a chance with Zack... i dont think he's into that... lol. poor you. yeah, just wait till he's in college when he might actually consider experimenting with the same sex... until then, be happy with Sonny.

today was cool cause i actually got most of the things the guy was explaining to us. and he let me listen to the distillers while i worked so i got my work done. *sigh* i cant get that beautiul smile outta my head!!!! god, i'm pathetic....Holly, come slap the lovesickness outta me PLEASE!!!! K, well lunch is about to start and my cd is almost over.  LATERZ LOVERZ

hey guys how's it hanging?  k, i'm not doing so good because yesterday my friend Prisha made me realize that i'm crushing on a guy named Zack.... i honestly dont know why cause i don't really know the guy but he's SO FUCKIN CUTE!!!! all he has to do to have me wrapped around his little finger is talk to me and show me how his voice sounds. (i'm a suckere for a sweet talker)

i am also in love with a moron named Sonny Moore! he's so much fun but why does the guy have to be famous with tons of groupies. i met him sumwhere and i'm a buddy.... yay!

to HOLLY!!! HI BABE!!! I LUB YOU!! ur wild. hehe