brodymoore

whoa..it really has been awhile since i updated and watnot..

so, i'm all sad and whatnot cuz i'm in love with this really great guy named Jesse. i have never met such a kick ass person! i honestly wish that he would be a girl sometimes so i can have him all to myself at school... but he's not. and he's with his ex-ex girlfriend... i don't know how many times she's cheated on him but like a moron, he keeps going back to her and taking her back... its retarded cuz you'd think by the second time that that has happened he would realize that she's untrustworthy, but i guess there'll always be emotional attachment to your first. (*.*) i want him to be happy, and i know i should be happy that he's happy...i just wish i could be the one to make him happy, ya know?

and he had like a "show" a couple weeks ago. i had to stay the night at his house (i know, right?) but we didn't do anything...to my disappointment. all we did was hug and hold each other at night and it made me feel better about myself...now imagine how i felt when he took her back the following week...

today, he's having another party to showcase his band off to the actual public and some of his more distant friends... and complete strangers...like j0e! hopefully... i hope i don't make myself look like a moron today. i know that its inevitable and somehow it'll happen...i just hope it doesn't.

k, until next time.